Words in my mind and thoughts on my pages...

Trapped inside the chaos of my thoughts, I wander here and there trying to give myself some answers. Irritated by the way things keep turning against me, always pressuring me.
I am up for a quest, looking for my long lost ego. Deeply wishing I could just slip away from all these situations that are truely risking my mental health nd clarity!
I'm afraid of my own self sometimes. Afraid someday I might lose it and forget to think.. what I 'm saying.. what I'm doing... Afraid I might fall apart and shred my sort, meaningless life to pieces.
Experiences that keep pushing me on the edge, people who never seem to understand, people who never seem to care, thoughts and feelings that lead constantly to dead ends...
But apasrt from all these, in your life there are no second chances. I will not have a second chance for each and every moment in my life. That 's why I really need not to forget to live and appreciate all of my moments. The good ones and the bad ones, tha happy ones and the sad ones, the ones that make me miserable and the ones that make me feel like I 'm flying.
You can take everything else away from me. But you can't take away my will to think, to imagine and to experience whatever the hell I want. 'Cause it's my decision to make. My consequences, my faults, my rights. All these are mine. Not yours.. Not anyone elses...


28.10.2010